#98 – Sashimi Attack!

I really went all out this time. Sashimi never tasted this good. I had been controlling my craving for sashimi throughout the entire pregnancy and confinement period and when I can finally eat them, I ate them like there’s no tomorrow. Uni, salmon and scallop are all my favourite and I had chiraishi so many times!

In the past, I’d express the milk to be thrown away, but this time, I just make sure that I dine at good restaurants. And then I keep my fingers crossed that my milk will be fine for Baby A. Haha!

I can’t tell you enough how good they are especially after a hiatus period of close to a year! 🙂

#96 – Expect the unexpected! (Mummy tummy)

It’s not once, not twice but quite a few times that kind souls in public transport gave up seat to me thinking that I’m pregnant. My post pregnancy wobbly blob is still very visible and I feel really embarrassed at first cos I’m no longer pregnant, just fat. I take great pains to explain to them that I don’t need the seat as I’m not pregnant and that I’ve just given birth. Usually they can’t hear me clearly cos of the noise level, so I’ll just accept their kind gesture. But deep down, I’m so sad that the stubborn bulge doesn’t seem to go down at all.

A visit to my Gynae got me even more discouraged. She said that breastfeeding doesn’t help to lose weight. It has to be constant workout especially targeting at the core area. I’m terribly disillusioned now and I’m really not sure how to get rid of the pseudo-5-months pregnant tummy.

It’s really different this time cos regardless of how much jamu massage, wrap n bind I did (I even ate less, exercised more etc), I still don’t seem to be able to slim down. I am running out of ideas already, short of going for a tummy tuck. Sigh! Will someone help me please??!!

#35 – Tough to wean off breast-feeding

I know that this time will come sooner or later and I was trying to do as much as possible for L. Little did I know that L was ready to wean off even before I was ready. That was about the time when L was 9 months, also the time when the milk supply started to dwindle. I “explained” to L that mummy will stop breast-feeding her soon and the reason was because she has “grown up” and will need to take in more substantial food. It may be the hormones cos I couldn’t help but start tearing as I talked to L. The thought of losing that close emotional bond was really too much for me to bear at that moment. I tried to comfort myself that there’ll be other things that we can do together to build on that bond.

#25 – Express Express

Before I delivered Baby L, many people warned me that breastfeeding was going to be tough yet I must not give up. I was glad that I had taken their advice. The new company was very understanding and set aside substantial space for mummy’s room that was especially for nursing mothers to express and store their milk during the day. I am glad that I actually enjoyed breastfeeding very much and the inconvenience of expressing at work was nothing compared to the benefits that the baby received. In fact, I dread the day when I had to stop breastfeeding cos I really enjoy the special bonding between Baby L and I.